Truth sets us free and lie sets us bound

Still - Hillsong

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong_united/still.html ]
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

While writing this, I play this song again and again . . .

Feel so much better after playing the piano on my keyboard. LOL!

Leave a big gap for you to contemplate after listening to the song :)

Sometimes, I feel frustrated with things that are happening around me. I feel that I couldn't breathe at times. I feel that the earth is going to crash down on me. This month is definitely not a good one for me.
Sunday is a day I used to love a lot but not anymore due to certain reasons. The only thing I am looking forward to on that day is church. Jesus is my strength to move forward. He is my everything. Without Him, I am really nothing but a small piece of worthless dust. However, he has molded this using His own hands into His unique, beautiful and wonderful creation. All of us are wonderfully made by God.
I believe that He has a plan for me - a GREAT plan.
I used to feel very empty inside but not anymore because I have Him in my heart. He is the main reason that keeps me going in my life.
Even though I kept on putting on smiles on my face, deep down inside I have lots and lots of things that I keep. Actually, I am a very deep thinker. I can't not just think about the present. I think about the future too. Nevertheless, I want to live my life to the fullest at present. I want to use my whole life to serve God. I already sort of know my purpose in life - to help others. Giving is a form of happiness.

On a side note, I love old people to the core. Not those grumpy ones! When I see them in the pharmacy, on the street or across the road, my heart melts. When I saw my grandma's photo on facebook recently, I shed tears seeing her grey hairs and wrinkles. She is old now and I really miss her! *oppsie tears are slowly flowing over my cheeks now. I am such a cry baby! Sometimes, I wish that I don't cry easily. Despite this, I consider myself quite strong so do not be deceived by my tears* Only one person in my circle of friends always manage to spot myself crying silently in my room. Actually, I reckon crying is good because after a mountain of problems, I feel lots better when I just let it out through tears.

When I used to tell my friend that I think I was depressed, he din believe me. Well, I self diagnosed myself. My root of so-called depression is for having low self-confidence. This is because no matter what I do, I never get the things that I want or desire. I reckon no one could tell from my outer self. When I say something, sometimes it means something else. meaning hidden under a word. I always just have to let stuff go even though I don't want to. I always think the best for others but not for myself. Don't get me wrong here. I do love myself.

Yesterday, a pharmacist told me that I am on the right track as in I am doing a good job in the world of pharmacy. I said noo and blahblah blah..she just said "yun, shut up..you will be" Another said to me that I think like a pharmacist . . . whereas another colleague said he can see me being a successful pharmacist. . . My preceptor really groom me well but I am very afraid I might disappoint all of them. Please don't put your hopes too high. I still feel very incompetent. I really wish that I am a pharmacist now and don't need to go through this intern year. I don't mind if there's no need for exam to get my registration at the end of the year. I feel this is really unfair cos' everything is based on that mere one hour. All your efforts and performance in the pharmacy throughout the whole year doesn't count. This is just silly.

Back to what I started off just now . . . I certainly cherish my life more now because of God. The reason I am writing this is the powerful message that was delivered across by a pastor at church last Sunday - "Truth sets us free and Lie sets us bound"

The truth is I am very complicated and the lie is I am simple =) Simple on the outside but complicated on the inside =) 

Lie #1 - Winning is everything. You will become slave to winning by just doing anything you want to get to the top especially dirty methods! If you want to win, you need to place yourself at the last position before gaining victory. Life is about what you can give to others in this world, how you can give someone to flourish the place, how you can provide unconditional love. Do not become a slave to sin of selfishness.

Lie #2 - Money will bring you happiness. Be generous always especially in tithe. It is easier to let it go rather than keep on thinking about money which makes you become a slave to money. Money makes us bound! you caer too much and forgot the purpose of God. Happiness = internal ; not external. Internal = joy+ fulfillment + peace. Nothing external can make you happy including money.

Lie #3 - Revenge is sweet - WRONG cos' holding grudge just damages our mental health, spiritual health and the others don't even know it. We want redemption in life so need to forgive others then God will forgive you in return. Only forgiveness can set us free.

Jesus has paid a very high price to set us free - his life. We are his children, adopted into His family and not a slave for anything.

We are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. We are his masterpiece. Do not believe that your life has nothing.

Love always,
yun